The Real Deal

Two posts in one day?! I honestly came here to post about something that was just too long to post on Facebook. And sometimes I'm not sure who I even want to share my thought with on Facebook, or that I just want to get them out. To see them in black and white. Not so much that I want to discuss what I have to anyone in particular. Negativity. Sometimes I swear it will eat me alive. It is soooooo easy for me to fall into a gossip trap! With old friends, with co-workers, with family. I hate it. Its never anything positive, and always just gives me and whoever I am talking to a negative view of another person. WHO NEEDS THAT??? Sometimes I see a person in town... and have horrible thoughts... about that "idiot" that cut me off. The "dummy" that can't park. The snobby co-worker that never says hello. I just assume these are horrible people. And I have never spoken a single word to them. I dislike people I have never even met. Its so easy to do. Its a hard habit to break, but I WILL! I do not want my sweet kids to think of the world in the way that I sometimes do. I want them to care. I want them to LOVE. I want them to see the good in people, not just the bad. What kind of world am I painting a picture of to my children?? I know they don't hear my thoughts, or my gossipy conversations, but I don't show them how to love and enjoy the people they share this world with either. Sometimes I think I have done enough. I served my country, what higher sacrifice could I offer to my neighbors? I nurse small school children on a daily basis. I donate clothes, money, food, even blood. But its NOT enough. If I can't manage a loving attitude, and get rid of the negativity... its all for nothing. I had to watch a video about empathy in one of my nursing classes, and it has forever changed me, and the way I think about PEOPLE.

The "pre-post" to what I really want to post :)

I cannot believe it has been almost two years since I posted on my blog. It's kind of like me and diaries. I get on a roll, journaling daily... then don't touch a notebook for years! Kind of like my diets? Ok... I'll stop there. Point is, its been a while! In the last two years, a lot has changes in our lives. Most notably the last year. We loved to FLORIDA last fall. I absolutely love it here. Its gorgeous. We live in a small town between Pensacola and Destin, only about a mile from the waterfront. We have great jobs, a nice home, the kids are in wonderful schools. We are beyond blessed. But that isn't the end of the changes we have made. We have opened our home to people we love. Namely: Chris' parents, Susan and Steve, and my little sister, Cheryl. They are all here temporarily, until the next chapters in their own lives. While I love each of them deeply, living with other adults isn't exactly like teenage sleepover parties every day. Its real life. Ups and downs, happy and sad... seven people under one roof. I have also returned to Nursing school. I will graduate March 2014. There is light at the end of the tunnel finally! Chris is also resumed taking online courses, though I am not truly sure of his educational plan... or even his major. Business? Criminal Justice? Intel something or other? It seems to change a lot, I am just so happy that he has decided to pursue his education, whatever that may be! I am working as a school nurse. This year I will be at the same school Alyssa will be attending, so we are both so excited! School starts next week, so I am sure there are plenty of paper cuts, scraped knees, and tummy aches in my future! My sister, Katherine, delivered a beautiful new baby boy this summer. I was privileged enough to make not one, but two trips to Texas this summer! Its always so hard to leave, seeing my family get older (the young and old), weighs heavy on me. A lifetime is not enough to spend with the people I love, especially living so far away. Uhhh... Ok, enough sapp. I guess we're semi-caught up for now. :)